In a field of Feelers, Thinkers, those who take Action and Dreamers I am solidly in the dreamers camp. At a recent self-inquiry retreat, I was asked to stand up and be counted as part of the Dreamer crew. I noticed that I felt bashful and wanted to sit down as soon as possible. I don't often feel like that, I'm usually pretty happy to be in front of a crowd. It turns out that dreamers are pretty bashful when it comes to putting ourselves out there are such. I think it's because of the messaging that dreamers get about having big ideas and that not really being a thing, that since I can't really show what I do with a thing then it doesn't count. I was thinking in the shower that I don't think all artists are dreamers. I wonder. Surely there is some component of it at work, but I'll bet lots of artists are do-ers and thinkers. There's more to the evaluation, it was a Meyers-Briggs type quiz.
It helped to call out part of what's holding up the growth of Curious Ground: I have left my comfort zone now that it's born. I have big ideas and concepts for days, just no ambition for marketing strategy and finances and being an architect of structure. I can do routine, I even enjoy it as discipline, I just would like it designed for me. And while you're at it, please help me purge my basement and come up with a system for mail once and for all! I've got vision for days and I might forget what day it is. I sometimes forget my age. I am learning to accept that I won't figure it all out on my own, and this kind of peace helps me to align with what really is mine to do. There's no sense applying for a job as a math teacher.
What good is looking at your dominant tendencies? Nobody needs another label, there are so many ways to do that within the human culture. It's another lens to look through and see how I can bring my best to any setting. I'm great in a brainstorming session, I can take the pulse of a room easily and I'm not afraid to dive into something new and learn as I go. Packing for a trip is tedious to me, I'm often 5 minutes late to everything (which stresses me out) and if you're close to me you've likely been involved in one of my hair-brained schemes. While it's only a sliver of a full portrait, it is helpful for aligning myself with the world I operate within. It's easier to stick close to reality when I'm looking this way.
It makes it a lot simpler to identify where my growth edges are too. Where are we leaking energy by trying to be or do what isn't naturally ours to be or do? Where could life be easier for us with some practice in areas that are currently unnatural? While my mind swirls with plenty of reasons to disagree, I'm entertaining the idea that doing what is mine to do with my whole heart is what's best for the whole world.