I just had a really wonderful conversation with a few of the women who participated in Spring 2017 of The Groundwork. It's an 8-week transformative process that I facilitate. Women learn how to loosen the grip of insecurity and self-doubt to cultivate an inner guidance system. As we talked, I was reminded how very connected we are, especially as women, by the stories we believe. In that connection is powerful healing. The adage that I teach what I need to learn never felt more true.
My own reflections on completing this first course have to do with believing it, and not identifying with it. I enrolled in a business development course for women to learn how to create Curious Ground, and when I began it didn't even have a name. There was so much about business I didn't know, and the biggest and most transformative lesson I learned was that I wasn't selling myself but a service. I have many years of experience in art school and working as an artist, and I never heard this. My experience selling my work or making a living as a professional artist has been painful at times because I was believing that the work was little pieces of me going out into the world. Precious as that sounds, it hurts more than it helps. When you don't buy my art, you are rejecting me. When you do buy my art, you are accepting me. That's not vulnerable but reckless, focused completely on what's outside of myself. Think of the author who is afraid to write a second book after a bestseller, the accolades feel so good why risk rejection again? What isn't risked because the fear of failure is too great? When what I do is an offering of service, you accept my offering and it's complete or you reject my service and it waits for its receiver. That's it, no good or bad. Closer to reality and truer expression of who I came here to be.
Curious Ground feels so incredibly important and I am proud of what has developed thus far. And even though it's become completely integrated within my life, the name on the cards is mine, the photo on the website is me, I am learning again and again that it all came through me, it isn't me. Kind of like childbirth, there's so much that I merely facilitated. I serve. I really love the facilitating and serving. It came to life when a community gathered around the idea that women can be the best caregivers, parents and partners when they have full access to their own inner potential, when they are first expressing who they came here to be. I am so incredibly proud to be in service to this idea.
PS- I recorded the wonderful conversations I've had with participants from the pilot run of The Groundwork, so look for that to pop up on the website later this week! I'll share it via the Curious Ground newsletter too.